| i can't sleep i can't sleep because you are on my mind you still haunt my thoughts our bitter sweet memories still surround my every day i thought i was strong enough i have to be strong you make me weak and you don't even see that you look my way and then look away you can be such a coward but i too am a coward especially compared to how much i want to walk up to you and hug you i miss you you were the closest thing to a soul mate i've ever had despite the way you ended things you've left me no choice but to leave you in my memories you've chased me away yet i still stay i alone make my choices to be where i am and to do what i do i'm here in my bubble because i choose to be my bubble that protects me but also poisons me you've left me afraid alone crippled by abandoned feelings why did you do this to me why won't you fix me i fixed you and you still turned your back i'm the broken one now you have suffered but i too have been suffering you are not the only one in this world who pays with pain be stronger you must be stronger find courage and hold onto it with your life i need to be strong i need to be brave i need to grow the hell up and so do you i need to run i need to run and run and run these thoughts out of my head i need to be free entirely of this pain it is but a thorn in my heart that's been pushed in and i've pulled it out but the scar that's left still gets salted every time you open the door and slam it in my face stop doing that please for your sake and my own
i'm broken i am not whole anymore you once completed me when you left you took a part of me with you you can have it i gave it to you so please keep it safe because how you treat that part of me, i can still feel it just as if it was still in my soul you will always have a part of me as i have a part of you you will always be in my heart nothing and no one can push you out i want that only to be a comfort for you you have been loved you are still loved you will always be loved no matter how impossible it seems don't give up don't ever give up keep your chin up and be grateful for your life be grateful for me as i am so eternally grateful for you God loves you
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| i am who i am not who you want to think i am
if i have goals i'll never let go until i see victory or fail
this life does belong to me God gave it to me and i'm trying to give it back
stop pushing me if i say i'm not ready then i'm not ready
when i am ready i will be ready for anything
i'm taking my time because i need it
the truth is, i still love you
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